You have no idea how much someone really means so much to you, til they’re gone…
For me its an ironic combination from how far… how hard you’re trying to not falling into deep, but you are…
I’m on my deepest sadness but someone should understand that its sometimes happened,
So I’m literally Okay now…
I thank God for this year.
My life was so beautiful… ♥
Its been a tough year as i remember.
I have my ups and downs.
Some of people come and go, love and hate, laugh and cry.
Some of others talk behind and the others just love the way you are.
Some people hurts your pride and underestimate you, but in the other side they’re afraid about losing you.
What screws us up most in life is the picture on our head of how it is supposed to be. So dont.. *Its like i’m noted myself hehe
But i’m grateful it reminds me that life is good.
c’est la vie…
May 2013 was so sad…
My one and only is no longer here in Indonesia. Though my prayer is always be with him. I still care for you dear tonton. I do.
Thank God for this year, for all of the opportunities!
Oooohhhh after this 3 years….. finally… they are no longer giving me a hard choice, but letting me to spread my wings and go. I thank to that! *wave goodbye*
Umm i dont have detail wishes for 2014…
Semoga mama, papa, ryant dan sahabat2ku selalu diberi kesehatan dan kami selalu dalam iman-Mu, yaa Allah ♥
I want to finish my own novel this year, #asiasnexttopmodel, travel more, get that damn passport, moving on, finish my degree and be happy.
I wish you guys good luck, keep positive, healthy and may all happiness be with you and your family!
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014!
OMG I’M GOING TO HIT 25 THIS YEAR??? Ugh…
What if Islam had never existed? To some, it’s a comforting thought: No clash of civilizations, no holy wars, no terrorists. Would Christianity have taken over the world? Would the Middle East be a peaceful beacon of democracy? Would 9/11 have happened? In fact, remove Islam from the path of history, and the world ends up exactly where it is today.
Elegance tends to be mistaken for superficiality and mere appearance.
Nothing could be further from the truth: some words are elegant, others can wound and destroy, but all are written with the same letters.
Flowers are elegant, even when hidden among the grasses in a meadow. The gazelle when it runs is elegant, even when it is fleeing from a lion.
Elegance is not an outer quality, but a part of the soul that is visible to others.
And even when passions run high, elegance does not allow the real ties binding two people to be broken.
Elegance lies not in the clothes we wear, but in the way we wear them.
It isn’t in the way we wield a sword, but in the dialogue we hold that could avoid a war.
Elegance is achieved when, having discarded all superfluous things, we discover simplicity and concentration; the simpler the pose, the better; the more sober, the more beautiful.
And what is simplicity? It is the coming together of the true values of life.
Snow is pretty because it has only one colour.
The sea is pretty because it appears to be a flat plane.
The desert is beautiful because it seems to consist only of sand and rocks.
The simplest things in life are the most extraordinary. Let them reveal themselves.
I got the saddest news today that me and my girlie were not into the show.
Last friday i went to the audition for Max Mara’s fashion show that will reported by ftv. Guys… its MAX MARA!!!
i pretty much regretted that i didn’t prepare anything. I just tried my best at the audition. It was like put your luck on the water, go with the flow…
Modelling and stuff was such a big dream for me. It yes sad when you believe that you have a chance, but you have nothing to make it true.
My parents they won’t ever support me in modelling cus i don’t know why… there are no exact reasons… they just not into it and believe that modelling is just a modelling.
I remember about 3 years a go when i joined the modelling class every sunday and pay for it from my savings. Its sad because all people have their gorgeous stilettos, and i only have ONE not up-to-date high heels.
All girls at the class preparing their make up and hair do very very well and me with my lion hair…. OMG ITS TOUGH! hahahha
But modelling is about to show the unique side of yourself. You have to understand yourself, which good and not good.
For some people, not good can be good with a touch so called “confidence”.
Karl Lagerfeld once said, “the secret to modelling is not being perfect. What one needs is a face that people can identify in a second. You have to be given what’s needed by nature, and what’s needed is to bring something new”
Thanks Karl ♥
There are times when people appreciated what you’ve done, and sometimes they don’t.
Like when you won the modelling competitions, invited to the local fashion show that all people told you that you are a star then you can brought all the outfit home!
But sometimes you ignored by the agencies, lose a chance and blah blah..
You know its good to be in a runway and show that you are special. I like being special. You have attitude that brings you to the attention. I love it.
Modelling will always in my mind and it is (still) a big dream for me.
So, didn’t get the role makes me stop?
modelling is about going ahead baby, not about memory…
For those who get caught up in drama and ugly things people say, just remember: life is short! Stay positive. A lesson i keep learning!
Its raining outside and i was like “I have something to share, but i am all alone here” so this is the thoughts…
I like doing routine. Really. Like you doesn’t need to prepare anything except for what you’ll eat at lunchtime or things like what’s happening on friday night and how is weekend feel so precious.
I like doing routine cus lets say… its easy! People won’t ever get afraid of anything because failed possibility is like 30%… because it is easy. You trained for doing it like million times in your life.
No no no NOPE definitely not!
Boring on a routine only happen in your mind when you hate about it.
Sometimes that’s allowed. But how about if its often? Dude, you know the answer.
Hate is a negative word. You can’t build a good personality with hatred.
For me routine is good, but try new things is great.
I mean, you know your ability about something that you usually doing and VOILA you have another thing in your life that makes you happy.
Its like an ice cube on a glass of coke… it sparks.
Simple things. Like join to the most random expat travel group, download random song in spanish, bake a dessert, learn other language, read a kinky romance book, trip to places you’ve never been before, drawing faces, teach someone how to dance, buy a boots, have a cat, give him name like “cream” or “cookie”, pray, meet someone new, loving, forgive the all heartbreak and leaving the old one…
Its all simple thing.
Dont be afraid of failure. Dont be afraid if people judge.
Even its gonna be wrong, if you happy about that, its right!
Try to understand yourself by being you. Adriana Lima once said “If you are shy, shy its cute”.
What I want to say is….. dont be afraid to try something new. Its fun.